Thursday, September 3, 2026
20260903 I visited a local festival near my home, where I visited many community centres. I visited one, where I met my old friend from middle school, Y---. After she graduated middle school, she disappeared so I was happy to see her again. She invited me to visit at her house, so I did. She lived well-off, in a huge mansion with a home movie theatre. At the moment, she was playing music amd am equalizer was shown on the screen. I selected a different song - one that said 4D - and the visual switched to a different colour. I felt the music. Not like powerful bass, but inside me. I could feel the song in the body part the song intended. It was incredible and intense.
Labels: emotion: happy, theme: music, theme: school
Wednesday, July 22, 2026
20260722 we had a small ceremony for mum-in-law who rested peacefully in the ground. This funeral home was different; they had bed rooms to clean and decorate, and a water pond for guests to float lily pads and flowers in remembrance.
Everyone was dressed in bright colours and saris as if it were a wedding.
Labels: theme: death
Tuesday, July 21, 2026
20260721 I was on a ship with many people who were my generation. I don't remember how we were warned, that many lives will be claimed by the tendrils of an ancient sea monster as we sailed in the sea. I don't remember how I learned to be safe as well - by wearing something made of pure silver.
On the day the kraken came, its ghostly tendrils came out through the floor. People were pulled into walls and through the floor. A small handful of us wore silver and we huddled together. We were scared, seeing our friends disappear, calling our friends to our sides and embracing them tightly so the tendrils would pass through them without harm. One shot up from the floor, trying to claim me; it felt icy cold. I felt it a couple more times as we called strangers to us and huddled together.
Soon it ended. We looked amongst ourselves as only a handful of is survived by silver, or incredible luck by dodging. One male podcaster sat on the floor. He made a comment and I mentioned I liked listening to his podcast.
Wednesday, July 15, 2026
20260715 I was with Cookie on a holiday. It was like a little hotel village. We were on our last night there when we sat down at at a cafe, where two round tables have been pulled together. A man from Germany comes by to comment and laugh. I had the impression he was family.
When he left, I felt bad I didn't have enough booklets from my mum-in-law's memorial service to give one to him.
We turned the corner to sit beside two of Cookie's long time family friends, B+L. My mum-in-law was suddenly sitting with them and suggested we eat here tomorrow before leaving. The man from before walk passed us again and I saw behind him at the restaurant that kids eat free on Mondays.
I said, ”Look, [baby]! You can eat free if you ate french fries.”
Saturday, May 23, 2026
20260523 i took a two hour commute all the way to downtown Toronto to meet Shortbread and her sister. I kept tabs on the time, noticing i had half an hour left of time before i had to take the train back home to pick up my toddler from school.
I wandered around a music store with wood panels for walls. A taxidermied black bear stood by the entrance, wearing a hat. I talked to a store employee, who let me wander around while I waited.
Shortbread finally arrived, out of breath from running. "I got here as soon as I could!" she exclaimed as her sister strutted by her side without breaking out a sweat. She said something about Shortbread too long to get ready and missing the trains.
I felt disappointed. I told them it's already time for me to go.
Monday, May 11, 2026
I was driving in the countryside, on a steep slope. Stopping on the side of the road, I turned the engine off. When I got back into the car, I didn't turn it on, but disengaged the handbrake and shifted gear into drive. The car rolled down hill from gravity, picking up momentum. I tried to brake, but it did nothing and I panicked.
I kept rolling downhill until the end of the road where I was suddenly outside the car. I watched my little, white Fiat 500 drive off the cliff into the sea and get swallowed up by the endless abyss.
I sunk to my knees, heartbroken. My mum-in-law bought that car from me, and she had passed away recently. I went through the next steps in my head, where I had to call my father-in-law and embarrassing tell him I lost the car since he was paying for the insurance.
Friday, February 20, 2026
20260219
I was on a mission with Jim Caviezel, who was probably his character Reese from Person of Interest. He was in his signature black suit and his hair had become silvery-grey. I had dark skin, like dark chocolate, and long, red hair that flowed in waves. Our mission was to protect a little Asian girl, about the age of four or five, from enemies who were attempting to kidnap her.
We got separated. Knowing the girl is safest with him, The Man in the Suit took her with him. The pursuers followed them into a train car full of golden straw. He fought them off, while on the phone, and succeeded without shooting anyone in the kneecaps. The little girl hid, hugging her stuffed bunny.
I was interestingly dressed for our sunny winter. I wore purple, reflective sunglasses and a silver peacoat that reached the top of my over-the-knee, caramel-coloured, high-heeled boots. I travelled to the town square of a small town to find information. There was a tall, black gazebo there, with speakers, playing random music. I crossed the gazebo, ending my call with Reese, calling him, 'Starry-fox'. I carried a leather-spined book with research and information relevant to the child. As I walked along an empty road, I let my guard down and a black, gloved hand clapped over my mouth as I dropped the book. I noted an asterisk drawn on the spine in silver marker as I tried to free myself. The last lyrics I heard from the speakers before I blacked out were, "I'll fiddle with my horse until you break it," sung by Shakira.
Wednesday, February 18, 2026
20260218 i was invited to become a voice actress for an official Star Wars television series. Oddly, my character was Maul and, even stranger, Sam Witwer was doing every other character. It was a twoman act.
He was every i imagined him to be - friendly and amiable. Knowing he's out-nerded Dave Filoni, i was intimidated to reveal my own Star Wars knowledge but i was in awe to be lucky enough to work with him.
Labels: theme: celebrities, theme: tvshow
Saturday, November 22, 2025
20251122 As an adult, I still lived with my parents, and so did my sister. But i had the wisdom i currently have now. We lived in a very spacious home which used to be an office building or an old science laboratory. I hhad a bunch of notes and letters from the post and my family. The last one i read was from my sister claiming i stole sewing thread from her.
My father's family came to visit along with members of the church. When they rang the doorbell, I rushed into the bathroom and my sister saw me shut the door, assuming i was hiding from them. I was preparing myself because i have social anxiety and i am easily overwhelmed in crowds. When i was ready, i walked into a bedroom with a clear glass wall looking into the living room. My mom was showing it to my family when i came in.
Soon quickly, members of the church swarmed me with questions. One man asked, "where can i take a quick nap?" Another young boy asked, "i'm bored is there something to do here?" I talked to them one by one as more people asked me like tourists, but i remember these two best.
"You can sleep here," i said to the tired man.
I gestured to the boy to follow me and led him into the living room. "We don't have much for entertainment. I usually watch television or am on my computer, but i can connect you to our wifi."
"That'll do, and don't worry, I can do that myself." He pulled out a short, three inch cord and connected it to a device sitting in our living room. It resembled a sound board but for entertainment. He was getting the information to his phone.
The whole time i helped people, my sister slinked in the background, spying on me for no reason other than her pettiness and anger. It was time to deal with her. I told her directly, "i didn't steal thread from you. I would always ask for it. And even if i did take some i'm clever enough to do it without you noticing. Why would i need your thread anyway when i have my own larger set of sewing materials?" I felt so angry and betrayed she would blame me.
Thursday, October 16, 2025
20251016 i was with the eleventh doctor from Doctor Who, and waa in a very small house. As he regenerated on the main floor, i ran to the basement to tell our other companion what happened to the doctor. He was lying on the steel staircase, in a boat frame. Before i could tell him, the tenth Doctor appeared, with an intelligent quip to say. Outside, the yard flooded, and was covered in a metre deep of water.
Labels: theme: tvshow, weather: rain
Monday, September 22, 2025
20250922 I was staying at a cottage with strangers. There were two couples, and two Filipino brothers. One night, the girl from one of the couples didn't return to the cottage at night. She was a large woman who wore a pink sweatshirt. She came back the next night and I greeted her. She didn't seem happy to be back and I realized she was trying to run away from her husband.
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I went to an underground shop that sold comics, manga, and video games. They held a pre-release copy of a "how to draw" book for me. I held on to it and left the store without paying. I realized it was still in my hand a few hours later and stuffed it in my backpack, which was full of plush animals. Cookie and Shortbread wanted to visit the store, so I went back and we ran into Amaretti. He was preparing to fly to him home country and needed something to read. I whispered to Cookie, "i still need to pay for my book but I'm scared." The staff hadn't noticed it was missing yet. Then we left the store. I kept thinking of ways to give the money, and then remembered i needed to return to give Amaretti a goodbye hug.
Saturday, July 26, 2025
20250726 i was pretty, slim, with tanned skin and long hair. I was with a boy who looked like Chris Pine. We entered an old building, looking for access to a building that was connected. We chose a floor, which was a warehouse of stuff in giant boxes. We ran into some people who were also looking for a way out of this floor.
Suddenly we heard someone coming, flashlight in hand. We ran, knowing this floor was private property. We couldn't outrun them.
He was heavy set and gruff as he asked us, "what are you doing here?"
"We got lost," Pine said.
The man looked at us from head to toe and nodded. "Follow me."
He led us to the middle of the floor where there were bright, hot set lights shone over a white back drop. People rushed about, holding vibrant colours of thin clothing as others were seated with makeup being applied to their faces. Pine was pulled away and we were separated as i was ushered into a make up chair and handed a tiny, fuchsia bikini.
The rest of this was a blur. I remember looking at a magazine later and seeing the brands i recognized from the shoot on the pages.
Sunday, July 20, 2025
20250720 i was outside Shortbread's parents' house. They had moved and she lived with them. Outside was a large front lawn and a canopy of evergreens led to the red front door. The grass was covered by a thin layer of fluffy snow.
It was my birthday. I came in to a small party of my friends and family.
Saturday, June 21, 2025
20250621 i was in school and running late to catch the bus home. I hopped in from the back, escape door, passing and waving to Shortbread and her sister on the way to an empty seat near the driver. Then the bus was off.
After several drop offs, the bus halted in a traffic jam. The engine was also dead from being the heatwave. I realized the street we were on was unfamiliar and not on the usual route, as well as Shortbread was never on my bus home. I was on the wrong bus.
My backpack wasn't with me either - i'd left it in my classroom, along with my cellphone.
"Sir," i called to the driver. He was elderly with white whisps of hair, glasses, and a red sweater vest on a white button-up shirt. "I'm on the wrong bus. I forgot my backpack and i don't have any money to get home."
He left his seat and pulled out a notebook and flipped to a page with music notes he'd written. Pointing at them he said, "do you know what these mean? I forgot them, but now i remember. They stand for 'peace...'" He waited for us to fill in the blanks: 'love', 'unity', 'respect', and 'trust'.
I checked the time overhead; it was 17:44 - at 18:00 i had to wake my baby and breastfeed her. I was not going to make it on time.
I called out to Shortbread behind me. "Can i borrow your phone a sec?" I asked.
"Of course."
I made my way to the back of the bus. The other students, tired and faint from the heatwave, lazed in their seats. Shortbread's sister leaned against the window as i approached and Shortbread pulled me into the vacant seat beside her.
She cheerfully handed me her phone.
"It finally pays to memorize a [phone] number," i said as i took it.
"Who are you going to call?" She asked as i tried to press the tiny buttons on the touch screen. Her phone was small with a tiny screen. It literally was also a piece of well-toasted toast, sliced in half. My fingers kept dialing the wrong numbers as i tried to press the '4'.
"Dean [Winchester]," (Cookie) i responded.
Friday, June 20, 2025
20250620 Shortbread and i ran through a Chinese plaza to escape some men chasing us. I had a friend with us. He was tall and lanky, blond and gentle. He was deaf. We stopped in a hallway behind some crates and he changed his socks from a white pair or pink ones as part of his work uniform.
We got separated and Shortbread and i tried to find our way around the Chinese stores and plaza. We were meeting our friends who were mostly Cherry's friends for lunch.
Shortbread and i ran into a Christmas supply store to avoid our predators. As we started up the carpeted steps, she said, "i always feel like someone is watching us."
I soon felt the feeling too, so we raced back down and out, successfully hiding out chasers.
We finally made it to our restaurant and was the first. Soon Cherry and her friends, then my deaf friend. He took a seat by me at the end of the table, reading everyone's lips. A group of Cherry's friends stopped in front of us to say hi. One of them was looking off to the side. She meant to look at us, but her vision was wonky.
As I sat beside him, I felt something urgent at that moment and my thought drowned out the conversation. I needed to tell him.
After this, he had work. I couldn't wait. As he started changing his socks, for a third time today, to another pink pair to go with his McDonald's uniform, I put my hands on his shoulders to have his full attention.
I shyly signed, "I think I love you".
Planting a hand in my hair, he pulled me into a warm kiss.
Tuesday, June 17, 2025
20250617 Cookie, Sprirz and i met at Biscotti's home. Others were there as it was his going away party before he flew to his home country.
Near the end of the party, Spritz said, " they didn't tell you?" Everyone stopped to listen. "The dogs are dying." He was referring to Cookie's sister's pups. Everyone's heads bowed in respect.
A while after the party, it was just me and Spritz, alone. "What's wrong?" He asked, noticing I was wistful and sad.
I gave him my response, beginning to cry. He pulled me to his shoulder, his arms held me in a hug. "You can always tell me what's wrong. I'm here for you."
After I let go and wiped my tears, calming down, we talked about his website and what shows were entertaining.
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I was on a mass-transit vehicle, looking out the huge window.
Friday, June 13, 2025
202506013 Cookie and I were at an apartment's party room for a family event. It was at the top floor of the condo, and at least three of the walls were glass - there was an unrestricted view of the sky.
Banana was planning the party and it was almost done. I asked if appetizers were vegan and she gave me one to try. There were only two of each one. I took a bite when Apple walked by. I offered it to him but he refused. I didn't like him. He was snooty.
Labels: emotion: anger, group: cookiefam, theme: food
Monday, June 9, 2025
20250609 i was a pudgy dwarf with jet black hair cut like Edna from the Pixar film, The Incredibles. I lived by the sea, in a lighthouse. On the bottom floor was a personal dock and my little speed boat.
My best friend was tall and slim, with a pointy nose and delicate features. Her hair was dirty blond and always kept in a low ponytail. She was the type to keep to herself. For a long time, she ran and hid from her husband. He wanted to kill her.
On this rainy night, he found her. We ran away from him together, running to the closest, safe haven we had - my home. We ran inside and bolted the door behind us.
"What are you going to do?" I asked her, breathless.
"I want to go home."
I knew where she lived. She lived at the edge of a lake, somewhere far from here. But I thought that was a bad idea. He could catch her on the way and--
Before i could act, she was gone. She took a skidoo at the dock. I raced to my speed boat in fear for my own life.
For months I hopped islands in case this man was on my tail. I needed to make sure he never found her. On every island, I partied with tall, tanned and buff men, and drank cocktails wearing leis, taking the longest route to my friend's home.
Saturday, June 7, 2025
20250707 Shortbread and i were in school together, taking a science class in highschool. We sat in our desks, reading from our textbook doing the work on the computer. We got to the activity which was like a cypher except it was relevant to our everyday life. I took a break and came back to find Shortbread's part and another student's were the opposite and solved a problem for a major health issue. On the computer, i tried to complete my cypher. when i looked up from my desk, a loner girl who dressed punk and preppy at the same time put her used mug beside me. She was a bully with a toque. You could see her belly button and she wore dark eyeshadow and liner. She told me to move so i did.
Next, i was watching from in her house. She was in a relationship with the dance teacher. As she leaned forward into the counter, he moved in hugging her from behind. The space between their bodies enclosed showing they get physical from time to time. She turned around in his arms, wrapped hers around his neck, she kissed him.
He pulled away. "Now is not the time," he said, smoothly. "I need to practice and so do you."
I got the impression he was injured in his last dance competition and was recovering.
She, on the other hand, had a competition against her ex-boyfriend in table tennis. He called her up to tease her. He told her, "let's practice side-by-sides."
So, against the wall, she slammed the yellow ping pong ball with her paddle in lightning speed.
20250607
Cookie's mom came to my home at night to help me move some flowers. She saw a small box of cute, mini vases, took one, and thank me. They were late Mother's Day gifts for everyone.
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Cookie and I visited Biscotti's home where he was having a small get together. Spritz was there and so was Shortbread and Wafer. I sat on a sofa while Biscotti's mom helped me sew up a dress I was wearing. It was navy and made of velvet.
Biscotti, Cookie and Spritz talked about the time they went to ???-Con and said I should have came.
"I really wanted to, but I have to finish this for school," I said.
Regardless, the room turned into a crowded hallway at ???-con, where The boys were walking. Shortbread and Wafer were close behind them. Everyone stopped at a small dining area. I jealously watched as Wafer invite Spritz to the beach, hoping he wouldn't go. Biscotti would be in his home country, Shortbread wouldn't be able to either, and Cookie found her intolerable. Spritz said he'd come and Wafer shrieked out a joyous reply.
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