Dreaming in Digital

20250131 My high school friends were having a get together at an apartment owned by either Spritz or one of his sisters. Cookie and I brought our four month old baby, who was quiet and happy. I sat at a small, white dining table feeling isolated  from all the activities. Because that's what it feels like as a new, breastfeeding mother at parties.

Spritz's older sister was going through the kitchen cabinets. I asked what she was doing.

”I'm looking for pot to make my hot chocolate," she said.

I got up from my seat and pulled out a small pot. “this will work perfectly," I said.

She agreed and left the suite to get ingredients at her apartment.

Spritz's younger sister saw Baby and asked to hold her. When Cookie came by, he asked, "where's Baby?"

I pointed to them by the window. She sat on the white, tiled floor with Baby on her lap as she showed her different pots and pans from the white cupboards.

I was in university, during my free period. I stumbled into a club that entertained children. There were various activities set around this room. A staff member saw me wandering and assigned me a task, assuming i was there to work. I was trying to cross the room to get to my class, which was in a mall.

I finally got to the class, where the professor had already started class. A childhood friend of mine was there, but he didn't recognize me. Shortbread, Spritz and Wafer also took the class, but stood at the other side of the room as the professor talked. I wondered if i was in the right class. I filled out forms, as did the class, and as i went to hand it in, Wafer handed me a few dollars, telling me to drop these off at the registrar office. I said 'no' and left the class.

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I was Cookie's first day back to work from parental leave. We had just moved into a new home. It was an older house, with old furniture and cabinets. It was in the early hours of the morning with dark skies and snow on the ground. Cookie's mom had come to drop him off at work. While she waited in the car, Cookie rushed to the kitchen to grab lunch.

I picked up a tupperware and asked him, “what about this one?”

He said it belonged to the jetski instructor and he has a lesson on the weekend.

When Cookie was going to the car, his mom came in asking for water. As i got her a glass, i checked the baby monitor. Our baby had her piggy face on and was running around outside. I yelled for her to come back in.

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I woke up in a bright room in one of two twin beds separated by my baby's bassinet. The bassinet was upsidedown with my baby underneath but safe in the basket area. The other bed was Cookie's. In the corner, where my feet pointed, was my computer.