Dreaming in Digital

 20230528 Rummaging through a filled garage, stacked with rows upon rows of metal shelves, I came across a partially opened cardboard box. I pulled out a picture book with a familiar-looking girl on the cover. It was a book about Jyn Erso's adventures before the events of Star Wars: Rogue One.

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Cookie's four-year-old nephew was having another birthday party for his friends only. Despite not having children, cookie and I were invited, so we awkwardly watched children run around the party hall.

Stacks of colouring sheet packages and a cup of crayons sat on a foldable table. I took one stack and began colouring the dinosaur-themed package. Not soon after, the nephew's mother's friend, and her two sons, were leaving. She searched the colouring packages for her sons' names but only found one. Dread set into my system as I flipped through the sheets I found a name written on the top right of the package.

I rushed to Cookie's nephew's mother telling her what I'd accidentally done - I didn't know they were only for the children. Overhearing my panic, my mother-in-law handed me a black USB stick and pointed me to a door.

"You can print out more colouring pages in there," she said, patting my shoulder.

Cookie and I entered the room. Everything was white. The only things in the room were a single computer and a black printer in the centre of the room. I booted up the stick in Windows Explorer to see thousands of files, and to my horror, none of them were in folders. I used the search function without luck, and after a few minutes, I decided to try searching on the internet for the exact same colouring book pages to print.

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20230510 I was with Obi-Wan Kenobi, Waxer, Boil, and the little twilek, Numa (from Star Wars: The Clone Wars), on the dry planet, Ryloth. With a stick in hand, Waxer was drawing plans in the dirt for how we'd reunite with our troops, who was named Ghost Company. Cradled on Boil's hip and arms securely around his neck, Numa made airplane sounds. With arms crossed, Obi-Wan watched us silently.

20230503 Cookie and I share a king-sized bed with dark grey sheets. I gave birth to a baby recently and laid our baby, swaddled, on our bed surrounded by pillows. Despite being small, the baby had plump cheeks, and much to my relief, didn't look like an elderly man.

20230502 I was with The Bad Batch (from Star Wars: The Bad Batch). Although I don't remember what happened, I remember spending most of my time with Wrecker who had a smile on his face. They wore their season one armour.

20230427 Cookie and I went to a summer camp for a day. It was in an old, Victorian home with its walls covered in old, yellowing, floral wallpaper. The camp counsellor was a woman in there late thirties. As she watched us pass, she seemed like a miserable person. She was also strict with us.

20230423 In a long, durasteel hallyway, lit by lights behind grates, I ran. Hot on my heels were clones (from Star Wars The Clone Wars) from the Coruscant Guard, their red and white armour blipped rhythmically with reflections as we passed blast door after blast door that lead to more corridors.